Wednesday, June 28, 2006

journey begins

this was supposed to be posted two weeks ago but i just dint happen to do so

its been two weeks since i've been at home.
life's been cool at home
been keeping myself busy most of the time, basically chilling out

spend the mornings at the club swimming or in the jacuzi and later work out for some time,later go to a class for c,c++ for about 2 hrs .afternoons are spent watching movies on the home theatre and in the evenings i play drums for some time(check-make an attempt at playing them) and play cricket with frnds .
casual outings with frnds happen nce in 3 days as my mother wants me to spend most of my time in front of her eyes.Been catching up with old frnds from ramaiah who are in different IITs now,we spend time bowling or playing 9ball and stuff .i wish we had a pool table at IIT to which we had access,we should if the current sports secy stays by his words.

But dunno why I dont feel like contacting my school frnds,even the very close ones,been avoiding them for some time now though they've tried contacting me, a couple of them.
I think all of us(me and my close group of frnds)have got into alienating ourselves from society,i no longer enjoy myself in large group, with relatives and old friends.
this has been a problem for quite some time now,guess we've been liiving our lives much too differently than normal 18 yr olds, we've got a lot more stress, a lot more work hours, a hell lot of more things bothering us constantly and demanding our immediate attention.
i guess we ppl think too much about our future and what we want to be doing and how, abt how we wannna lead lives and ,dos and donts of a successful life and career, abt the various fields and options we have, critically analysing our avenues........................what and what not.
guys right now i strongly feel that perhaps we live a lot in the past or in the future, some more in the former and some more in the latter.
this reminds me of aamir khan in RDB saying "hamara ek pair bhoot main hain aur doosra bhavishya main, tabhi to hum aaj par moot rahe hain".
guess its high time we start living in the present, enjoy it to the fullest and try to be cheerful , this would go a long way in improving the quality of life we live and we'd be much more happy than most of us presently are.

today morning i went to the inaugral function of the wing for children in a nursing home, constructed and donated to the community by my uncle.
the chief guest was the state finance minister who gave an hour's speech and that too in telegu, i felt like crushing his testicles so as to make him stop, then there were those morons,the Members of Parliament and other dignitaries basking in the glory of the boquets and felicitations they were receiving.

today i'm extrememly frust with my parents as its the third time we are cancellling our plan of going on a much needed holiday for a week.

went out with cousins to coffee day ,there i ordered for a black current frappe and what i got was our very own cough syrup right from its colour to taste, guess these ppl (CCD and Barista) have mastered the art of unsuccessfully copying the flavours from outside the country and making a true mockery of them.

i have observed something in the movies i've seen of late and come to think of it in a lot of other movies as well, in novels etc puts a serious doubt on my understanding of women.

most of them have girls who have two guys in their life.it beats me how a woman can love two men at the same time. the female in the plot seems to be sharing an intimate relationship with both the men and is totally unclear abt who she truly loves.
among the two one happens to be the bad boy but that doesnt deter her or make her think twice before wrking towards her motives, i fail to understand why.
its like she always knows that what she is doing is wrong but she always fails to control her emotions when she confronts either of them.
both are married men and she knows that she is ruining their marriages but that doesnt hinder her,she is ditched by one but she meets him on a business trip after 8yrs and both make love the same very night.
the other had ruined her career even before it began but when she ends up meeting him after avoiding him for long they head to bed.

i understand these are american stories and have little relevance to our lives but its like i am a bit confused as to wether is it so difficult to decide or pick between two ppl that u keep both in the dark and have both options open for urselves
and that if ur a bad person and have done something really harmful to sum1 else for ur selfish motive then doesnt it rule u out of his/her good books and list of loved ones forever no matter how physically attractive u r.
its different if ur totally admissive abt ur deed and wanna start it all afresh but here the concerned characters have the potential of destroying the woman yet again,their liking is just to satisfy their physical and other professional needs and to benifit from her role and position in society.
dont woman have the sixth sense or should i say common sense to see through such false images of ppl, i guess they do but now i'm in serious doubt.

recently i read namesake by jhumpa lahiri and the main character there falls in love thrice with diff women,another thing i find inconceivable.
come on how can u be intimately close with more than one woman
i guess if i ever happen to fall in the so called " true love " then perhaps it will be the one and only time.
how can u totally put someone whom u've loved out of ur mind and start going out with sum1 else.i do not understand.and this i have read abt and seen time and again-
ppl love sum1 else and voluntarily go ahead with marrying and spending their entire life with sum1 else for reasons more than one,either it is family or peer pressure or the notion of financial status and needs, and the betrayal is mostly on the woman's front.
on this i would suggest you to read the blog of my friend abhiraj bhal where in he has opined on the fact that woman need men just for their reassurance and on certain aspects of tht i totally agree with him and i am sure even u will,we've had a good talk on this together and the breed of woman is certainly tht way,i am not frust even though i may be sounding so but this we believe is the bittter fact of the way of thinking of the fairer sex.
well i'll add more to this later but for now lets halt my first publication.

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